Lot's of things hapenned again. Well. I forgot write you that I've got piercing. I've pierced my lip.
Saki found beatiful interpret for this night.
Rose Noire.
They are sooo inspirative. I feel somehow beautifuly relaxed
and inspirated. Like vampire at nights. Full of power and melacholy.
It is great switch of places in my life. If you won't uderstand, don't worry.
I was pretty depressed yesterday. I am really sorry to Saki. I really apologize. There are nights in my life really depressive. I wanna be alone in these times. This mood is mostly rising from nothing. This melancholic, depressive sadness. I'm finding my life blank and empty. Loosing myslef - finding no way how to enjoy someone else, loosing sense.
My apologize, Saki-kun *bow*.
Maybe it's because of school, my father or my irritation. My father is doin' things he never did. He is startin' loosin' himself in alcohol. I don't feel well near him.
But I am successful in school. And I must prepare myself for my lecture on medieval clothing and dining. I will talk about it for two lessons. Phew. Lots of things to do.
And then - I must find a job.
But this night I am turning off.
Lil'Bit of this feeling...
