Blue Day

I promised I would write better post here, but today is blue, sad day. I've argued with my parents... hardly. I'm loosing my hope and power.

I wanted just talk with them calmly. But they started yellin' at me. Well father did. But my mumsaid, she wouldn't talk with me about this.

They exploded, blew up.

Daddy called me by names... I've already got used to be called by names at home. But only from my mum.

This really hurts.

He is so apathetic...

I can't stand this. I... I.... I'm giving up. These bad times before Christmas... This my Nightmare Before Christmas.

Dido is helpin' me to be clam...

this is blue day...

"Honestly OK"

I just want to feel safe in my own skin
I just want to be happy again
I just want to feel deep in my own world
but I'm so lonely I don't even want to be with myself anymore
On a different day if I was safe in my own skin
then I wouldn't feel so lost and so frightened
But this is today and I'm lost in my own skin

And I'm so lonely I don't even want to be with myself anymore

I just want to feel safe in my own skin
I just want to be happy again